It was an incredibly long day today for me and my family. We had a six hour round trip car ride as we bid farewell to a friend of ours that passed on into the next life. We said goodbye to him, then celebrated his life with family and friends at a restaurant and then went to visit some other friends who are wonderful artists that live in the area we were visiting. By the time my husband and I got the children in the car and were ready to hit the road for our long drive home the moon was already out and shining beautifully in the night sky.
I hadn’t had a chance before we had set out this morning to do my painting or meditation and I’ll admit I had a moment there when I thought, “Ugh, all this driving, then we have to attend to our dog, get the children ready for bed, etc., etc. and then I have to still paint and meditate?!”
After a wonderful Kundaini Yoga class I taught last night some students remained behind and we were discussing energy and emotions and what to do when it feels like too much to bear. I recounted a story when someone had once told me to be like the Buddha when that happens, when the Buddha was sitting under a tree and eating only one grain of rice each day. He was emaciated, his hair and fingernails overgrown and unkempt. But that one grain of rice sustained him, he overcame the uncomfortableness of being in such a state. Of course we know that eventually he abandoned that particular path but we can still gain some wisdom from his experience. “Be the grain of rice.” I told the student. “Embrace the energy or the emotion. Let it move through you and then surrender it to the universe. Do not fear it. Experience the experience and then let it go.”
So I took my own advice today and when I was about to allow myself to get agitated and overwhelmed about the prospect of having a long night ahead of me before sleeping I “became the grain of rice”. I embraced the emotion and then let it move through me and out to the universe. When I looked up into the night sky there was the moon again shining in the darkness. What beauty to behold. Naturally she became my inspiration for tonight’s painting and what a joy it was to paint it! I felt relaxed and calm, even when painting a crescent became challenging, I was calm, even when my son decided that he wasn’t going to go back to sleep without loudly (very loudly) letting us all know that he objected, I was calm, even when my daughter decided to join her brother and also object loudly about having to go to bed, I was calm, even when the dog who was so excited that we were back home that she pooped on the floor, I was calm, and when my son decided he would poop too (thankfully not on the floor), I was calm.
I am the grain of rice.
Thank you Buddha! Thank you moon!